Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Remembering...


Caleb.

Our firstborn grandchild would be 7 today.

When I look at Charlotte and Levi, and now Gabriel,I can't help but wonder. Would he look like they do, with their dark hair, huge dark eyes? Would he make me laugh out loud like they do? Would he wrap his arms around my neck and say, "I love you, Grandma" and make my heart melt?


I know this is basically the same thing I wrote last year at this time, nearly every single word the same. It will probably be the same thing I write on March 13 next year. Does it get easier as the years go by? That's a hard question to answer. Charlotte, Levi and Gabriel fill my life with such joy. As I watch them grow and develop, sometimes that makes it harder, as I see the distinct differences in our grandchildren. What would he be like? What would make him laugh? What things would interest him?

When I first heard this song by Laura Story, I knew it was special.  I have listened closely to these words, played the song over and over. And this week--every week but especially this week--I know that through all the heartache, though we only had him for three short days, Caleb will always be a blessing.

40 comments:

  1. Prayers for you as you are feeling your loss on this special day. xo

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  2. It's hard to believe it's been 7 years. I'm extending prayers to you and your family in remembrance.

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  3. Love and hugs to you and your family xxx

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  4. Thinking of you and your family today. Sending hugs and prayers your way. Much love and peace,

    Rene

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  5. How sad...I'm thinking of all of you today.

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  6. Thinking of you and your family and your loss. I know that everything happens for a reason, but sometimes I just don't get it. Big hugs.

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  7. with tears in my eyes i'm sending you big hugs!!!

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  8. Sending you and your family lots of love xxx

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  9. Prayers for you and your family to be comforted.

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  10. I am sure the loss is there all of the time. My prayers are going out to all of you.

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  11. Oh, I'm so sorry! Sending you love, my friend!!

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  12. Oh, Cindy, this just breaks my heart. I am so sorry. Hugs and good wishes to you and your family. I don't know how one ever gets past things like this. You have my thoughts.

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  13. Blessings on you and yours. Praying for you today.

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  14. You are all in my thoughts & in my prayers! L•O•V•E, L•O•V•E...Laura Story's song it's been a healing song for me. Those 3 days were a receiving of JOY that no one can take a way from you!!! Hugs to you!

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  15. Thinking of you and your family today.

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  16. Prayers go up each time this year. Love, janice

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  17. Oh Cindy! That was very moving. I'm praying for you and your family and grieving your loss with you.

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  18. Mercies in disguise - what a beautiful way to look at the trials and heartache that we each face. Sending prayers to you and your sweet family at this tender time . . .

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  19. thinking of you and your family. this is heartbreaking. sending lots of love and peace and prayers to all of you.

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  20. Thank you...words like yours make me appreciate life just a little more. So sorry for your loss...your special words are indeed a tribute to a special child and family.

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  21. Thinking of you today... I hope it gets easier... As soon as march hit... the tears began to fall. Its such a difficult time.. thinking of you.. I feel like were on this journey together.. xx

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  22. So sorry for your loss....blessings to you.

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  23. Hugs to you, Cindy! And thank you for sharing that beautiful song, just what I needed today.

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  24. You're in my thoughts and prayers. I understand that pull to a child that only a grandmother has and while it is difficult to explain to the non-grandma crowd, I think you come about as close as anyone does. What a sweet baby--a sweet child, and somewhere in Heaven, in God's care, he is a sweet seven-year old, looking down on his family.

    E.

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  25. Hugs and prayers for you and your family.

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  26. Muitos beijos e bençãos para você e sua família sempre.Deus continue te dando paz para seguir em frente,sempre pensando que um dia todos nós nos encotraremos com o PAI TODO PODEROSO.Pense que é um anjo de DEUS a nos alegrar com lindas canções...

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  27. Sorry Cindy. A loss is always difficult, but when it comes after the joy and anticipation of a birth it is so painful. Sorry....big hugs.

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  28. I thought about you and your family yesterday. Prayers and hugs for you...

    Jennifer

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  29. I had no idea. I so sorry. :(
    Prayers to you and your family.

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  30. ** sniff ** Sending caring thoughts your way.

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  31. I'm so sorry. Lots of love and thoughts coming your way. (((hugs)))

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  32. I just read this post today and my prayers are with you. Our little one would have been 27 on March 7 and it still hurts but some years it is easier than others and there is no explanation for that. God bless you and your family. Your sweet little grandson is in heaven with all the other sweet little angels.

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  33. Prayers to you today, the day after. I am listening to the song and it brings chills. It is a slight balm, and maybe time will ease, maybe not. But you remember, and that is honest.

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